20 weeks pregnant

Today I’m 20+6. Just about 21 weeks and just about two weeks away from viability. We’re so close yet so far away. The uncertainty that every day brings is excruciating. Last night what I’ve been dreading began - cramping. There is no doubt the cramps were what felt like contractions, but I’m too afraid to call them that. Because that means this is real and labor could be approaching. They’ve been pretty consistent throughout the day, the cramps. Increasing in intensity and frequency. I know, none of this sounds good. The worst part? We’re only a week away from what is considered a “viable pregnancy”. Meaning at this point there is nothing they would be able to do for the babies. However, at 22 weeks, there is a chance of the babies surviving. ONE WEEK. It’s 7:25pm and I just crawled into bed - After spending a good 30 minutes crying, talking to the babies and holding my belly, which has gotten to be quite big. The babies have strong heartbeats and we saw them wiggling around just this morning. This doesn’t feel like the end of our journey. I’m praying so hard right now, praying for a miracle. Praying that our little girl and little boy can hold on just a little bit longer. You are so wanted and so loved.

Sadie