One week since we lost Nellie

It's been one week. One week since our sweet Nellie girl passed away in our arms. We dream about what her life with us would have been like. Would she be goofy like her mama? Fearless like her daddy? We miss her every second of the day. 

The first half of our pregnancy was filled with so much joy and excitement. Codey and I were so ready to become parents, and finding out we were having twins was the best news ever. We were built for twins! We often talked about what life will be like with two babies, a vision that felt so real. Our nursery has two cribs in it. Two rockers. An extra wide chair to hold two babies. We never imagined this outcome, that we wouldn't get to bring them both home. A piece of our family is already missing before it has even really begun. 

Now, we imagine holding our baby boy in that nursery, telling him about his brave twin sister Nellie, knowing she is with him always.

Today I'm 22 weeks and 2 days. We still have a long road ahead of us, but every day is a milestone. Our next big goal is to make it to 23 weeks. I'm praying we can go much longer.

With love,

Sadie